idle.

Finals is over, thank goodness, and here I am with everything and nothing to do. I'm just waiting around for Justin and Miles to come home already! I'm missing both arms & legs without them. Sometimes it's as if they are just out somewhere (like Wal-Mart), and I'm just waiting for them to return home. I take comfort knowing that they are both having new life experiences on their own! I talked to Miles on the phone last night and he sounds like he is older. He told me, "I'm a bad boy mommmy. Not a good boy!" He really emphasized the "not." And later found out from his gamma that he has been having tantrums when he doesn't get his way--very typical of a 2 year old. I also heard that his papa is not giving in but being stern with his discipline--which is basically taking away his transformer toys until the next morning. He is totally comfortable with his grandparents to show them all the many sides :) Being with his grandparents is also a learning experience for him because they are so great at teaching him new things, introducing him to new words, ideas, and activities.

I miss the big nerd, Justin. He could not get a phone in Korea, so I haven't spoken to him since he left on Tuesday morning. He's in Korea DJing for a HUGE BGirl/BBoy international battle R-16. You can check him out here: http://www.r16korea.com/r16korea_eng.p

It's such a big deal especially since not only is it a collosal jam that gets Korean coverage like how ESPN covers sports events over here, but it's also Justin's first time to go international. (Speaking of go international, I've had so much time to hang out at Target and I love the go international line by Rogan yo)Anyways, back to Justin---I'm so happy, excited and proud of him--he gets to experience something amazing--and have a nice vacation before starting his new job at the Boys & Girls Club. I really appreciate how hard he hustles with DJ gigs. He was born to hustle.

I guess since I'm here in the 707, Justin's in Korea, and Miles is in Waipahu, this is just our time to miss and appreciate each other, and enjoy hanging out with other family members and friends. And, press the reset button.

From now til the morning I leave to Hawaii, I plan on cleaning (what fun!), organizing (even more fun!), watching Sex & the City (yay!), and going hiking somewhere. I'm excited for Hawaii!! :) I will be reunited with Miles and hang out with our ohana. I also hope to just hang out all day long at the beach which is nature's spa, exfoliating my feet with the sand and getting a sea salt treatment in the clean Hawaiian ocean.

Justin has our mac, and I went a few days without the internet. It felt like I was cut off from the world! How sad...so my pops is letting me borrow his mac which I'm using to blog with. Thanks to Christina, she sent me a picture of my boys during a moment when I was missing them badly!

Mama's Day

On Thursday, Miles handed me this for mother's day...


He had painted the pot before he planted the flowers. His teacher has the best activities for his class!

Mother's day will always remind me about the day when I first found out that I was pregnant with Miles. 3 years ago, I got up really early to whip up a huge breakfast for my mom and my aunt. I remember feeling unlike myself--something was different. It was the first time I felt so nauseous but was determined to finish cooking that breakfast for the mothers in the household. I slept for the most of that day and when I woke up the next day, I decided maybe to take a pregnancy test. And that was the beginning of all the changes and joys to come!

Here I am 2 years later, with a bright and silly son. Nothing makes me more happy then spending time with him and Justin, doing something as simple as taking a walk together or drawing pictures, seeing what Miles comes up with. Being a mom was really an on-the-job learning experience! Miles was kicking my behind in those first days! Thank goodness for Justin, he was a natural mom, uh--i mean, dad. I learned a few things from him, from changing diapers to calming a crying baby down. But eventually, I learned on my own with Miles leading the way. It has been such a beautiful experience to just go with the flow of motherhood and truly follow my own intuition in raising this happy toddler, Mileskiii.

I totally appreciate all the hard work my mother has done for my bro, sis, and I growing up. She will still get up early to make breakfast for us when we stayed over. I now understand why my mom got up so early before work to cook us breakfast. She could have easily left us with a box of cereal and milk but she always made it a point to make us a warm meal...rice, turkey bacon, eggs-over medium...I am sooo like her now. I feel like its so important to make Miles a savory and hearty breakfast to start the day.

Anyways, being domesticated is not the only joy of my role as a mother to Miles! Moments like the other night when he's about to fall asleep but rolls over to tell me, "I wuv you mommy" is priceless.

Here's to all the mamas and the kids who give us the best work ever!


Justin & Miles (and I behind the camera!) at Golden Gate Park after mama's day brunch with family.

Gamma & Papa

A week has already passed since Milesʻ grandparents visited last week. He was in heaven with them here. Itʻs amazing how much he remembers from over a year ago--when he was only 1 years old--visiting his grandparents in Hawaii. He was anticipating the time when he would get a visit from his Cadabes grandparents and surely it happened! I swear, the other month, when Miles and I dropped Jus off at Oakland airport, Miles was looking around for his grandparents, thinking that we were picking them up. He totally associates the airport with his papa & gamma! I heard that while I was at my gig, and Jus and Miles were picking up the grandparents from SFO, he was all ecstatic and in shock when he first saw them.

Itʻs a vacation for Justin and I when mom & dad are here because itʻs like the only times when we donʻt have to worry about Miles and interact with him 24/7 because he is so preoccupied with his gamma & papa! What a great break it was! Thanks for everything mom & dad if you happen to read this!!!! We truly are blessed to have such supportive sets of parents on both sides. We all really miss them when they leave--especially Miles. When he woke up in the morning the day they left, he starting crying looking for them! Oh my gosh, itʻs such a sad cry too. I have to keep reassuring him that he is going to see them this month. I started showing him the calendar and explaining to him the days of the weeks, showing him where today is and when gamma will come back. In the meantime, heʻs been reading his "Mele the crab" book he got from gamma & papa and I swear heʻll have me read it 5 times in a row! Itʻs such a cute story so I donʻt mind at all :)

Miles eating his favorite (and his daddyʻs favorite) breakfast..Captain Crunch. I never got to eat this stuff when I was a kid.


Hanginʻ out with Daddy at the record store.


Miles goes digginʻ for wax too!


Happy to be on his mini-vacation in his old stomping grounds, SF.


He loves his gamma!