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Saturday, January 07, 2006
the lil barracuda we call Miles
the first 6 days of his life and ours as his parents has been quite an experience! all i can say about it is Whew!! ok, bye.
sike! each day is different--not to mention each night. sometimes we get sleep, sometimes we're delirious--but at all times Miles is just so loveable i don't mind all the changes--i'm just learning to flow with it. the first day & night was overwhelming cause i was just nervous about everything, wanting to do my very best as a mama. but i'm chillin off being so hard on myself. this is all new. and so far, Jus and I have been doin our best tag-teaming: i feed the lil buggah and Jus changes his diapers.
it's great seeing Miles' character already. he's an aggressive lil capricorn! the Lactation RN came by for a home visit and noticed his great motor skills but also commented on him being a "little barracuda"! and i know all you mothers out there nursing know what that means...but everything takes time and practice and that's what it's been like so far...PRACTICE.
it's also great seeing Justin as a papa--Papa Jones. he's so good with Miles. I've never seen him so patient. he can calm Miles down when he's fussy and he's also been teaching me a few tricks of the trade. he was born to be a father. it's such a beautiful thing to walk into the room and see him dancing with Miles in his arms with Roy Ayers playing in the background, Everybody loves the sunshine. Miles loves that song. all we need to do is bump it and he relaxes...and so do we.
i'm adjusting to my role as a mother and i realize that it is the most important role i'll have in this life. i remember the RN in lamaze class sayin that "labor & delivery was a piece of cake compared to a lifetime of raising a child." labor & delivery was a piece of cake--with the help of Jus, mom, Lea & all the helpful staff at Sutter...and i'm understanding & overstanding the challenges of this role. but i guess you can call it maternal instinct--when nature just has you doing what you need to be doing as a parent.
now that Miles has arrived (2 weeks early--he just had to say "Happy New Year fooz!"), i can't imagine not having him with us. i'm excited about what's to come for us as a family but i'm just taking each day in stride, taking each day to appreciate the lil buggah and his Papa, taking each day to soak it all in--cause i know they all grow so fast. we've grown so fast--my parents can't believe i'm a parent-not to mention the fact that they are grandparents.
it's a trip to see how things change from one year to the next. around this time last year, i was preparing and practicing non-stop with Dee for the Skratch tour show at dna lounge. Jus came through to the show--as a homie. this year, we're starting the year off with Miles and now i'm married to my homie Jusoneo. i just give thanks for all the blessings and can't stop thanking my mom & dad everytime i see them.
big ups to all the mamas & papas out there doin their thang...
peace.
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
"In order to create you have to be about change..."--Miles Davis
Changes, changes, changes...so many changes in just a short amount of time. we really are resilient beings. it could be difficult to adapt if i chose to remain the usual stubborn self that i can be but it's totally different now that i'm a mama.
One challenging aspect of being Mama Feel Good is feeding Miles. this boy eats just about every hour--except when he takes his 3 hour naps. and Jus and i love those long naps too! two weeks have passed since his first doctor's visit and since then he has grown 2 inches and gained a good amount of weight, weighing in at 8 pounds 15 ounces--he's ready to box.
Each day gets a little easier as i get in rhythm with Miles, developing somewhat of a routine. like today, i actually have time to type this up as he sleeps. earlier, i was able to skratch during his 3 hour nap, feeling a great release afterwards. i'm so thankful for this outlet cause it is possible for me to lose my mind right now--but i can't afford to cause i have a baby to feed!
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
inspiration.
tomorrow night is going to be my first night out since Miles was born. my sister & brah-in-law volunteered to watch Miles while i get a dose of inspiration; D-styles & Mike Boo cuttin it up at the Elbo room. lately, i've been watching some dvds which have been getting my creative juices flowing, including the Bastard Language Tour & the Night at the Knitting Factory. I got to attend these shows--and it just reminds me how much better the SOUND & FEEL is LIVE. anytime i get a chance to hear the greats play live--i leave the place feeling like its time to practice! seriously.
and yo, honestly, i'm out of practice. i've been adjusting to motherhood and now that i got a better hang of it--i feel ready to leave my fat fat boy home (with his dad or someone to watch him ofcourse!) as i start spring training with Dee. i know it ain't Spring yet--but shoot--i need to get a head start. this year looks good and we both got a lot of work to put in. after tomorrow night, i know we'll be pumped.
balancing the role of being a mother & being a DJ doesn't seem as difficult as it may be to balance out having a 9 to 5 and being mother to a newborn. well, so far it seems practical and easy. but then again, it is what you make it--so whatever i think of these roles will manifest. i just have to coordinate my schedule with Jus and i'm pretty thankful for breastpumps. yo, Miles is bound by the breast which means that it really would be impossible to leave him for a few hours. unless i fed him formula! but i'm really trying to just feed him breastmilk for at least these first few months (it's the best nutrition for your baby!). that's why breatspumps are great...especially electric ones. but i'm open to formula in case of emergency. (mothers out there--any suggestions?)
ok i'm such a mom. i just read what i typed. i started off thinking about skratching and here i am talking about feeding breast milk & formula. see, these two important aspects of my life--music & Miles are coming into balance! but back to the music part--i also have to balance sharing the tables with Jus. i remember dan aka Snaykeyez (hey ladies!) saying he didn't want to date a DJ cause he felt that he would end up fighting over records...well, in my situation--that's not the case. we married into each other's collection. (yup, i got an arsenal of breaks now--all i have to do is dig thru Jus' collection! haha) but as far as time on the tables--that's when it can be tricky. afterall, Jus is really active in making new break mixes or making beats--and even skratching. he's getting pretty good...which reminds me that i need to practice while both of my boys are asleep!
peace.
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Today has a been a GREAT day!
April 12 is a special day. My nephew, Darrien, was born at 9:30 pm! I'm so happy for my brother Eric and his wifey-to-be, Jen! They will make great parents. Miles has a new cousin to have adventures with as they grow up :) Today is also my bestfriend's 26th birthday, Diane Medina aka Deeandroid. It was a great way to celebrate, cuttin it up for ASU at SFSU earlier this evening. Miles got to watch his mama in action. It was a family affair! Today is also my nephew's 1st birthday, Jesse Machado. We got to celebrate it on April 1st in Vegas with most of the Cadabes family. That was a dope weekend with delicious Hawaiian food. I think I gained about 5lbs from grubbin on lau lau, kalua, and mac salad.
Right now, the moon is huge. Tomorrow is a full moon. The sky actually cleared up a bit this evening so we got to see a little sunshine.
I just love these days when there is so much happiness around you, balancing it all out.
Dee and Winst-Oner are coming over and we're gonna peep Piece by Piece, the documentary on SF graffiti history. Miles is already sleeping so its time to unwind.
give thanks.
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