We spent the day at Lolo's & Lola's house, eating, eating, and grubbin! "I'm breastfeeding" is always my excuse ;) And today, it was my excuse to eat turkery burgers, shrimp, ribs, and even chicken asada tacos (marinated from the Vargas market in Rancho)...mmm hmmm! It was Justin's & Eric's FIRST FATHER'S day :) Eric enjoyed his day of all days, drinking it up with his homies over. Jen and I actually enjoyed a cold beer :) My first beer in over a year! I couldn't even finish half of the bottle, feelin a bit tipsy! Talk about a cheap date...I can't believe i use to be a 40-water chick. Anyways, after being such a breastfeeding nazi for all these months, I decided to loosen up. one beer won't hurt...Miles seems to be doing fine!
Justin's mom had sent Jus a very sweet card. Hallmark can be corny but also on point. In just 3 sentences, this card articulates our life changes in a nutshell:
"Now everything else is second. Now everything else can wait. Now one tiny person holds all the promise in the world."
That's wassup. I had to relay the message over to Jen. It's great having Mommy convos with her!
But while it was a happy first Father's day it was also somewhat of a sad day. Yesterday we attended the funeral services for Uncle Roman, my Aunty's husband. My cousin George (her son) and Aunty Daling were over today for a bit. I know she's in a great deal of pain. I know my cousins are also dealing with grief in their own way. I can't even imagine what it feels like but I have a pretty good idea after losing loved ones--my grandparents and also Angell. Justin also spoke about losing his grandmother--how painful it was to grieve. Those feelings returned to the both of us during the funeral. After yesterday, I couldn't help but pray that nothing will happen to Justin or Miles, praying that I will be here for them for a long while too. These two guys give me all the reasons for living a long, healthy life. It was no coincidence that Uncle Roman's services happened during Father's day weekend. He is no longer in pain. And as Sylvia Browne says, "Spririts never leave--they are always with us."
Today was also the LAST day we all hung out with Bobawts. Awts is leaving us for a year in Conneticut! She's joining the babysitter's club. Sike. She's doing her residency all the way on the other side of the country! It was sad when she was saying her goodbyes but you know my family just finds a way to laugh it off. Humor is the easiest way for us to deal with our emotions--or sometimes used to even avoid our emotions! I'm driving her to the airport tomorrow with Bob. I hope she can visit us at least a few times over the next year. I'd like to take Miles out there maybe during the winter months. Bobawts will be missed! They kindly donated their very nice flatscreen to the Miles fund so he can enjoy his Baby Einstein dvds on a larger screen. I kept thinking of how she will be missing out on seeing all the developmental milestones of both Miles & Darrien. It's sad really. Everything is always just a give and take in life. Poor N9na--I don't think he realizes what is happening. He loves Bobawts and vice-versa. It's too bad Bob can't just take in N9na.
I think I'll just start putting together dvds of the family and send them over to her like how we do for Justin's parents. It's been a good week and yet a sad one. I can hear Aceyalone's lyrics resonating, "It's perfectly balanced...".
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