Hot Summer Days & Nights

Saturday night was spent without Miles! Wooohoooo! Hahaha...

We left him with Lolo & Lola so that Justin & I could go on a "date." Our type of date is pretty much cruisin neighborhoods without Miles, being worry-free of having to check on him through the night. We just took a long walk around Northbeach, visiting Uncle Gary's flat, enjoying the view of downtown SF.




The night felt nostalgic--reminiscent of the first time Justin & I "hung out"--back in 2003. It felt great to just have that time with each other again. Balancing marriage life and parenthood is tricky. But having any time off from baby makes it easier for us to build with each other. To top the night off, I also got to sleep in somewhat--because Miles slept with Lola and Darrien. Poor Lola! She was juggling two crying babies all night! But grandparents really do enjoy it! I'm glad someone enjoys it!

On Sunday, Miles hung out with Lola & Darrien for awhile. We ate fried bananas with french vanilla ice cream...Mmmmm...






Later that evening, we had dinner at Aunty Lea's place in "Wine Country" aka Napa. "Wine Country" just makes me think about Mr. Big and Carrie. I bet Mr. Big would have lived somewhere close by Aunty Lea--if he were real!

Napa was HOT! Miles didn't get to play with his cousin, Wicket, but he wasn't too sad because he was entertained by the ceiling fans.



The summer weeks are flying by fast. Today we got a chance to walk to Baker Beach across the street from our pad with Aunty Lea. It was a bit too warm for a 2-mile-walk, so we just took a short scenic one. I really do need to take Miles out for more walks while the weather is beautiful in SF. Last week, Miles enjoyed his first Muni ride on the J, walked around Irving, then to Haight street and took the train back. I swear, Amoeba and Target are the stores Miles is most familar with! What a shame...

What he can do...

At this 6 month mark, Miles can:
-sit-up on his own for awhile before falling to the side (thank goodness for pillows)
-roll from belly to back
-grab anything and everything in sight
-pull his socks off
-almost put his feet in his mouth
-grab glasses off peoples' faces (esp Jus)
-touches my mouth and feels my face while he nurses
-pat and bang on books, toys, or our faces
-uses his feet and legs to grab things out of reach from his hands
-while on his tummy, move his arms to rotate his bodies position (when he's eyeing another object)
-pull down the lever on his bubblegum machine toy
-crack-up if you play games with him or make faces
-yell as his way of calling your attention (something other than crying)
-lean forward and hold his hands out if he wants you to carry him
-cry if we leave the room
-cry if he doesnt want to be carried by someone other than me or Jus
-choose what toy he wants to play with
-imitate sounds we make " say ahhhh"..."ahhh"
-almost pull his body up as if he were doing crunches
-hold his weight up standing if we hold his hands
-eat rice cereal, bananas, and carrots
-somewhat sip through a sippy cup
-splash his feet when he takes a bath
-hold his own bottle
-press his lips together when he refuses the pacifier
-cry
-cry really loud
-cry as if he were screaming bloody murder
-did i mention that he can cry hella loud?
-oh yeah, he can whine, "ehh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh" etc.
-communicate really well with us
-arch his back if he doesn't want to be held
-fake cough for attention
-watch a whole baby einstein dvd show
-lift his upper body in a push-up while on his tummy

This is just my list to keep track of his development up until this point. Jus this week, he's been eating twice as much as he normally does. He is also taking more catnaps. And all this extra food and extra sleep gives him extra energy to play, play, play. He gets up at 7-8am ready to play and will not have it if Jus and I continue to rest.

Ok, speakin of the lil devil, it's time for me to play with him.

Greenery

Fresh air. Thank goodness! Sunny, warm days in Frisco are rare (even during our summertime) so we had to take advantage of it. I remember the first month of Miles' life, being cooped up indoors sucked. The days are much more enjoyable now that we can go on different types of outings as a family.

Besides Target, Haight Street, downtown SF, and the Excelsior district (our frequent spots)--is all of SF's outdoors. Our fam loves greenery! When Miles gets excited--he kicks his legs and swings it. While we walked through golden gate park's botanical garden, Miles was swinging his legs for the most part.



We got lucky when the clouds cleared and gave way to some sunshine.



Miles got to see flowers, trees, and plants from different parts of the world. He kept leaning towards whatever flower or plant was infront of him.



It feels good to be outdoors and in nature.

Baby Einstein Lover

This is what he likes to do each morning...


...watch his Baby Einstein dvds. We like to play them in Spanish. Primavera! Otono! Verano!

And later on in the afternoon, he hits the gym for his workout...

Our New Baby...

Move over Miles cause we got a new baby... ;)


Miles had fun playin with his brother, Mac.




And now it's time for Mommy & Daddy to have fun with Protools...

We love tekmology...

When we were at the Apple store, we ran into Andrea's Mama, Aunty Jasmine. Andrea and Miles were born on the same month of this year. They have yet to meet. Jasmine and I were already talking about playdates coming in the near future because our babies will be mobile soon.

It's hard to believe that so much time has passed. Miles is one of the older babies downtown. The fact that he is no longer just nursing, eating rice cereal, bananas, and carrots--reminds Jus and I that he is growing up! He's like the puppy that you wish stayed the same--in size, shape, form and cuteness. No wonder why people go nuts over babies! I completely overstand!



While we were waiting to pick up our new baby, an elderly lady walks by Jus, carrying Miles, and stops. She takes a few steps back to look at Miles and placed her hands on his feet, staring at him with this grandmotherly type of facial expression--a loving and longing gaze. "My grandson is all the way in Australia." And I empathize, "His grandmother is all the way in Hawaii." "Well, do you webcam? That's what we're here for."

What a great idea, right. So funny, Bobawts called us (after we told him we were picking up a new babyboy Mac) to tell us that we can set-up meeting room webcam chats with Awts--all the way in Conneticut! Now Miles' Grandma Susan has to get one of these new babies. Tekmology! It's a beautiful thang...

We need a break!!

In an attempt to give ourselves, as well as Miles a break--we went to Amoeba's yesterday so Jus could dig for some breaks...and so Miles can leave the apartment for a break...and so that I could also get a break--alone(walking by myself around Amoebas is valuable and rare alone time).


It was a great. Miles seemed to be in a great mood. He got to meet some of his Uncles and an Aunt visiting from Hawaii (his Daddy's homies). He even had some bananas before bed. And after about an hour of unwinding, he eventually fell asleep. But woke up 15 minutes after...then woke up an hour after...followed by the next hour...and the next...and on & on & on.

I don't know what's going on. He is not sleeping through the night like he use to. He gets up every hour or two, crying for his pacifier or to be held. Jus and I arent getting the sleep that we need. So today, I felt pretty wound-up and crazy! My patience ran very thin...so did Jus(two cranky parents is not good). Even a car ride would not put the boy into his deep slumber. Ooh, "deep slumber" sounds gooooood.

There's no point in me trying to sleep right now. I'll end up getting up again in the next half-hour or hour. WACK! So here I am, venting and processing into my digital friend. I need to unwind. I really do need some sleep. I can't remember when was the last time I even got a straight 8-hour sleep. Maybe it was before I got pregnant with Miles. I'd say over a year ago. :(

oh well. Tough shit. Everything comes second, right. Our sleep comes second to this lil prince.
Days like this makes me appreciate the really good moments.

Ain't having it!

At 6 months, Miles' character is starting to resemble his moms & pops. For one, he is one CRANKY lil man if he doesn't get his nap on schedule (which is just like his daddy). Today, we didn't get to go to Lola's for bar-b-q but instead went to Aunty Chrissie's & Uncle Ian's. In a new environment, with many new faces--Miles wasn't havin' it. He didn't want to sleep at first, adjusting to his surroundings. He didn't want to eat, noticing that the walls looked different. He wants to sleep and eat his meals his way or no way. What a lil capricorn boy i tell ya! He even snubbed a cute babygirl, Pikea, while she smiled and patted his hand. This was the first time I saw him so ANTI! And this quality reflects on his mama. I guess it's the Vtown in us!? Usually, he's open arms to new, smiley faces. Even though he already knows his Aunty Lauren, he was not having it. No hugs, no love.



Instead of interacting with all the people surrounding him, he slept. It ain't like he didn't get any sleep prior to Aunty Chrissie's! He did sleep all night long.

When he was awake, he'd ignore everyone except for moms, pops, and those eating or holding a drink in hand. He was even crying for a beer! Oh no!

After a long afternoon outdoors, we headed back. Miles smiled as soon as he entered the car--something familiar to him. When it was just the 3 of us, he starting babbling. It was almost hard to believe that 5 minutes ago--he was in such a bad mood. I'm telling you--Dr.Jekyl & Mr.Hyde steez (and again, just like his pops). But I was glad to see him back to his usual loveable self!

And as soon as we got home, Miles...


...pooped. Maybe he just needed to let it all out! Let it all go! Immediately after, he was in his playful mood but ofcourse, got all sleepy again because it was his sleepy-time hour.

So now he's asleep and it's time for Jus and I to enjoy some relaxation! Praise the Lo'd!

His Life In the Sunshine...

Miles got to check out another stimulating day in San Francisco, the Fillmore Jazz Festival. For the most part, he enjoyed his late afternoon merienda, people watching, listening to a jazz medley, and spending some time with his Aunty Lea.

Miles met many of his Daddy's Hiphop friends, finding out just how popular his Dad is in SF. He can't go anywhere without meeting a new face! Besides his Daddy's homies, Miles met a pretty baby girl, blowing raspberries and impressing him with her skills.


For the most part, we listened to the music from the corner of Fillmore & Sutter, right by one of the main stages. After snacking on garlic fries & corndogs, strolling by a grip of vendors, and posting, we decided to head back home. We missed all the Jazz Funk and Afro-Jazz funk bands that played on Saturday (because we were at Lola's house watching the Pacquiao fight). But Miles was satisfied with his bottle and audio-visual stimulation, absorbing everything and everyone around him. On our quiet walk back to where we had parked--somewhere by Divisadero--we found that Miles enjoyed the view from beneath all the trees. Sometimes it can be that simple. We hear him laugh and smile the most with the most simple things. Festivals for Miles, so far this summer, have been somewhat hectic. So many vendors, so many food stands, so many peoples...not to mention so many strollers trying to manuever through crowds...

All in all, this city boy is very lucky to be emersed in city life and nature. We look forward to different types of events that spring up in this city. I always look forward to our peaceful walks together. Today was one of those good days with Miles when all I can think of is how much he is loved.

Partners-In-Crime

Here's to new beginnings! These are the first real moments of the two cousins bonding, being fully aware of each other.



Miles couldn't stop himself, grabbing Darrien by the arm, learning more about who he was.



Darrien enjoyed relating to another little person, smiling away! They were literally just chillin on the sofa, choppin' it up. Darrien would say "goo" and Miles would respond, "Ah-goo."



Miles was excited just to be with another baby--what a change from being surrounded by all the big people. He's already juiced to have a new homie, a new brotha--his best-cousin.

Ferberizing

I think I need to try this with Miles. It takes me anywhere from 15-40 minutes to put this boy to sleep. What do you think?


The Ferber Sleep Method
There comes a time in the life of every new parent, usually sooner than later, when they feel the time is right to have their child sleep through the night. Whether they arrive at this point as a result of exhaustion or frustration, or both, they begin to look into ways to help their child sleep better and, hopefully, longer. This is usually the time when parents first learn about "The Ferber Sleep Method."

Dr. Richard Ferber is the director of The Center for Pediatric Sleep Disorders at the Children's Hospital in Boston. Ferber's Sleep Method, sometimes called "Ferberizing," has become very popular with parents and pediatricians, though both groups readily admit that this method is not for everyone. Some feel that Dr. Ferber's book, "Solve Your Child's Sleep Problems" is a godsend, others feel it can make both babies and parents suffer.

Ferber's method takes a progressive approach to getting your child to fall asleep and stay asleep through the night. It involves putting your child to bed while awake and teaching your child to fall asleep on his or her own. The Ferber method advises that you leave the room once you put your child to bed and say goodnight. If your child cries, you must wait a certain amount of time before checking on them. (The period of time suggested in Ferber's book depends on your comfort level, how long you've been using it and how many times you've already checked on your child that particular evening.)

When you do return to your child's room to check on them, soothe them with your voice and rub your child gently with your hand, but do not pick them up, rock them, or feed them during these checks. Ferber believes that in many cases waking up is a learned behavior, which the child may have associated with some type of reward, and by removing the reward(s) associated with waking up, a child will learn to sleep through the night.

According to Ferber, the next step is to gradually increase the amount of time between checks. After about a week, according to Ferber, your child will learn that crying earns nothing more than a brief visit, and that it isn't worth the effort. They learn to fall asleep on their own. It should be noted that the Ferber Method is recommended only for children six months of age or older, after their need for a nighttime feeding has passed.

Changing behavior is never easy, and can be complicated tenfold when it involves your own child. Our need to "make it all better" can get in the way of teaching our children to sleep through the night. Many parents are not comfortable letting a child cry for any period of time. It is that fact that has raised controversy over Ferber's method. Still for those parents who can do it, it may offer a quick and relatively easy solution to the problem of getting a good night's rest, for everyone.

Mr. Independent

So as nature has it, looks like its time for me to ween the monster off. I'm a bit sad but I figure I can still nurse him at least once or twice a day. He seems to enjoy bottle-feeding as well as feeding his own independent self.




After his meal, we headed to the V to visit Darrien and Lola & Lolo. Darrien is growing so fast everytime we see him! He's just about the size of Miles! The cute thing about this little fat boy is that he snorts in between his crying and whining. He's the lil piglet and Miles is the lil monkey.




I gotta admit, I do feel somewhat relieved now that I can probably rest more and do more things since the milk factory is coming to a close. I remember Tasha, Brandon's wifey & Jesse's mama, telling me how sad she was when she weened Jesse from her at 6 months. Back then, Miles was just 2 and a half months. I felt like she was lucky to be free from being bound by the breast. But now that I'm at this point, and my lil boy is growing up, I am feeling it!

I look back at the first days of feeding Miles and still pretty surprised that I managed to feed him for these past 6 months! While he is pretty much a good baby, the balance to that was that he has been such an agressive lil barracuda on the breast. So nursing has been WORK. But his good health and our happiness is the pay off!

He loves icamera

Not only does this lil buggah love music, city strollin, and people watchin, he also loves tekmology. Miles got to meet his Uncle Wes today--got to peep his piece in Northbeach and also got to check out his icamera--which he loved. These babies just love to stare at themeselves. I wonder what they are thinking in those big heads of theirs! Miles also found out that he has a homie coming in September :) Congratulations Wes & Sabrina...babies are beautiful beings. This is definitely the year of the boy.

First & Last

We spent the day at Lolo's & Lola's house, eating, eating, and grubbin! "I'm breastfeeding" is always my excuse ;) And today, it was my excuse to eat turkery burgers, shrimp, ribs, and even chicken asada tacos (marinated from the Vargas market in Rancho)...mmm hmmm! It was Justin's & Eric's FIRST FATHER'S day :) Eric enjoyed his day of all days, drinking it up with his homies over. Jen and I actually enjoyed a cold beer :) My first beer in over a year! I couldn't even finish half of the bottle, feelin a bit tipsy! Talk about a cheap date...I can't believe i use to be a 40-water chick. Anyways, after being such a breastfeeding nazi for all these months, I decided to loosen up. one beer won't hurt...Miles seems to be doing fine!

Justin's mom had sent Jus a very sweet card. Hallmark can be corny but also on point. In just 3 sentences, this card articulates our life changes in a nutshell:

"Now everything else is second. Now everything else can wait. Now one tiny person holds all the promise in the world."

That's wassup. I had to relay the message over to Jen. It's great having Mommy convos with her!

But while it was a happy first Father's day it was also somewhat of a sad day. Yesterday we attended the funeral services for Uncle Roman, my Aunty's husband. My cousin George (her son) and Aunty Daling were over today for a bit. I know she's in a great deal of pain. I know my cousins are also dealing with grief in their own way. I can't even imagine what it feels like but I have a pretty good idea after losing loved ones--my grandparents and also Angell. Justin also spoke about losing his grandmother--how painful it was to grieve. Those feelings returned to the both of us during the funeral. After yesterday, I couldn't help but pray that nothing will happen to Justin or Miles, praying that I will be here for them for a long while too. These two guys give me all the reasons for living a long, healthy life. It was no coincidence that Uncle Roman's services happened during Father's day weekend. He is no longer in pain. And as Sylvia Browne says, "Spririts never leave--they are always with us."

Today was also the LAST day we all hung out with Bobawts. Awts is leaving us for a year in Conneticut! She's joining the babysitter's club. Sike. She's doing her residency all the way on the other side of the country! It was sad when she was saying her goodbyes but you know my family just finds a way to laugh it off. Humor is the easiest way for us to deal with our emotions--or sometimes used to even avoid our emotions! I'm driving her to the airport tomorrow with Bob. I hope she can visit us at least a few times over the next year. I'd like to take Miles out there maybe during the winter months. Bobawts will be missed! They kindly donated their very nice flatscreen to the Miles fund so he can enjoy his Baby Einstein dvds on a larger screen. I kept thinking of how she will be missing out on seeing all the developmental milestones of both Miles & Darrien. It's sad really. Everything is always just a give and take in life. Poor N9na--I don't think he realizes what is happening. He loves Bobawts and vice-versa. It's too bad Bob can't just take in N9na.

I think I'll just start putting together dvds of the family and send them over to her like how we do for Justin's parents. It's been a good week and yet a sad one. I can hear Aceyalone's lyrics resonating, "It's perfectly balanced...".

small fries

On Sunday this past weekend, we brought our lil V-town boy to E-40's Fatburger in Pleasant Hill. We enjoyed our turkey burgers and Miles got to taste ketchup on a skinny fry. He got so frustrated, holding his fry--not being able to eat it. He still has to learn how to push food to the back of his mouth. His fussing made us eat as quickly as possible. After our meal, I realized that this boy was really hungry--it was 4 hours since the last time I fed him.It was so mean of me to eat in his face!

Afterwards, we hit up the Rasputin's down the street (where I use to work) and bought records as well as a Baby Einstein dvd for Miles. Today, he actually sat still for about 10 minutes listening and watching quietly...and then, he started screaming his head off.

Bobawts came over for dinner and caught some of the dvd. Awts claimed the dvd was as scary as those Teletubbies episodes! I have to admit--some of these baby/kid programs are a little wierd. I wonder what they would look like on trees...hey, what can I say I'm a tree-hugger.
Whatever it is about these eye-catching programs, Miles loves it.

Miles' Milestones

He's 5 months and he is growing so fast, learning something new each day. Right now, he is trying to sit up on his own. He can sit up like a tripod and go forward, trying to suck on his toes. He also knows that I'm his mom and Jus is his dad, crying for us when we leave the room or enter the room. Miles knows what food is and everytime he sees me take a bite--he yells, "Ahhh!" with his mouth wide open, waiting for a bite of his own. In 3 weeks, we'll give him a taste of his first banana. I'm already excited for him so I purchased Earth's best bananas and pears :)

This boy can sleep through the night. He loves his sleep. If he misses out on a nap--he'll scream. The only other time he'll scream is when he's hungry. Right now, he is also teething. He refuses to breastfeed unless I'm engorged. I fed him 4 ounces of formula for the first time and he took it but had gas after. Poor baby! All I can give him is his Orajel and Tylenol. I'm druggin' him up, hoping to relieve some of his pain. It's so kuwawa!

At this point of parenting, being a mama to a capricorn boy, I've gotten into the groove of things. Miles has such a strong personality. He knows what he wants and is very demanding. He is also such a great communicator. He opens his eyes wide and smiles from ear-to-ear when he wants us to play with him. One of the best sounds to me (besides Hip hop music) is hearing Miles crack up! I can already see his sense of humor building...he cackles! It makes us crack up. But the first time I heard him laugh, I actually got all teary-eyed just feeling the joy in his voice. ok, i'm corny but I love my lil seed. I'm thankful for our blessings. I can hardly remember those first weeks of panic and confusion. Thank God we survived! Seeing him learn different things about himself, people, our world in general is rewarding. I love the look on his face when he stares at trees as we go on our walks. It's these simple moments with him that makes every second worth all the work. Cause let me tell you, IT IS WORK. This is my most challenging job ever. If I could get paid for my sweat & tears, I'd own a grill worth a house in Frisco. Sike.

I can't believe Miles is so big now. He's retiring from his infant car seat. I think he's 1 inch passed the requirement. It's time to buy a big boy one now. My little big boy!

He's here...the lil barracuda we call Miles

It's been awhile but I've been tied up. Motherhood & parenting--so far--ain't no joke! Labor & delivery was a "pleasant" experience and Miles left the womb, entering our earthly world on January 1st 2006. He couldn't wait til the 10th. I'll write more on my birth story later but for now, here's a picture of our family...



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Saturday, January 07, 2006


the lil barracuda we call Miles

the first 6 days of his life and ours as his parents has been quite an experience! all i can say about it is Whew!! ok, bye.

sike! each day is different--not to mention each night. sometimes we get sleep, sometimes we're delirious--but at all times Miles is just so loveable i don't mind all the changes--i'm just learning to flow with it. the first day & night was overwhelming cause i was just nervous about everything, wanting to do my very best as a mama. but i'm chillin off being so hard on myself. this is all new. and so far, Jus and I have been doin our best tag-teaming: i feed the lil buggah and Jus changes his diapers.

it's great seeing Miles' character already. he's an aggressive lil capricorn! the Lactation RN came by for a home visit and noticed his great motor skills but also commented on him being a "little barracuda"! and i know all you mothers out there nursing know what that means...but everything takes time and practice and that's what it's been like so far...PRACTICE.

it's also great seeing Justin as a papa--Papa Jones. he's so good with Miles. I've never seen him so patient. he can calm Miles down when he's fussy and he's also been teaching me a few tricks of the trade. he was born to be a father. it's such a beautiful thing to walk into the room and see him dancing with Miles in his arms with Roy Ayers playing in the background, Everybody loves the sunshine. Miles loves that song. all we need to do is bump it and he relaxes...and so do we.

i'm adjusting to my role as a mother and i realize that it is the most important role i'll have in this life. i remember the RN in lamaze class sayin that "labor & delivery was a piece of cake compared to a lifetime of raising a child." labor & delivery was a piece of cake--with the help of Jus, mom, Lea & all the helpful staff at Sutter...and i'm understanding & overstanding the challenges of this role. but i guess you can call it maternal instinct--when nature just has you doing what you need to be doing as a parent.

now that Miles has arrived (2 weeks early--he just had to say "Happy New Year fooz!"), i can't imagine not having him with us. i'm excited about what's to come for us as a family but i'm just taking each day in stride, taking each day to appreciate the lil buggah and his Papa, taking each day to soak it all in--cause i know they all grow so fast. we've grown so fast--my parents can't believe i'm a parent-not to mention the fact that they are grandparents.

it's a trip to see how things change from one year to the next. around this time last year, i was preparing and practicing non-stop with Dee for the Skratch tour show at dna lounge. Jus came through to the show--as a homie. this year, we're starting the year off with Miles and now i'm married to my homie Jusoneo. i just give thanks for all the blessings and can't stop thanking my mom & dad everytime i see them.

big ups to all the mamas & papas out there doin their thang...

peace.

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Thursday, January 19, 2006


"In order to create you have to be about change..."--Miles Davis

Changes, changes, changes...so many changes in just a short amount of time. we really are resilient beings. it could be difficult to adapt if i chose to remain the usual stubborn self that i can be but it's totally different now that i'm a mama.

One challenging aspect of being Mama Feel Good is feeding Miles. this boy eats just about every hour--except when he takes his 3 hour naps. and Jus and i love those long naps too! two weeks have passed since his first doctor's visit and since then he has grown 2 inches and gained a good amount of weight, weighing in at 8 pounds 15 ounces--he's ready to box.

Each day gets a little easier as i get in rhythm with Miles, developing somewhat of a routine. like today, i actually have time to type this up as he sleeps. earlier, i was able to skratch during his 3 hour nap, feeling a great release afterwards. i'm so thankful for this outlet cause it is possible for me to lose my mind right now--but i can't afford to cause i have a baby to feed!

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006


inspiration.

tomorrow night is going to be my first night out since Miles was born. my sister & brah-in-law volunteered to watch Miles while i get a dose of inspiration; D-styles & Mike Boo cuttin it up at the Elbo room. lately, i've been watching some dvds which have been getting my creative juices flowing, including the Bastard Language Tour & the Night at the Knitting Factory. I got to attend these shows--and it just reminds me how much better the SOUND & FEEL is LIVE. anytime i get a chance to hear the greats play live--i leave the place feeling like its time to practice! seriously.

and yo, honestly, i'm out of practice. i've been adjusting to motherhood and now that i got a better hang of it--i feel ready to leave my fat fat boy home (with his dad or someone to watch him ofcourse!) as i start spring training with Dee. i know it ain't Spring yet--but shoot--i need to get a head start. this year looks good and we both got a lot of work to put in. after tomorrow night, i know we'll be pumped.

balancing the role of being a mother & being a DJ doesn't seem as difficult as it may be to balance out having a 9 to 5 and being mother to a newborn. well, so far it seems practical and easy. but then again, it is what you make it--so whatever i think of these roles will manifest. i just have to coordinate my schedule with Jus and i'm pretty thankful for breastpumps. yo, Miles is bound by the breast which means that it really would be impossible to leave him for a few hours. unless i fed him formula! but i'm really trying to just feed him breastmilk for at least these first few months (it's the best nutrition for your baby!). that's why breatspumps are great...especially electric ones. but i'm open to formula in case of emergency. (mothers out there--any suggestions?)

ok i'm such a mom. i just read what i typed. i started off thinking about skratching and here i am talking about feeding breast milk & formula. see, these two important aspects of my life--music & Miles are coming into balance! but back to the music part--i also have to balance sharing the tables with Jus. i remember dan aka Snaykeyez (hey ladies!) saying he didn't want to date a DJ cause he felt that he would end up fighting over records...well, in my situation--that's not the case. we married into each other's collection. (yup, i got an arsenal of breaks now--all i have to do is dig thru Jus' collection! haha) but as far as time on the tables--that's when it can be tricky. afterall, Jus is really active in making new break mixes or making beats--and even skratching. he's getting pretty good...which reminds me that i need to practice while both of my boys are asleep!

peace.
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006


Today has a been a GREAT day!

April 12 is a special day. My nephew, Darrien, was born at 9:30 pm! I'm so happy for my brother Eric and his wifey-to-be, Jen! They will make great parents. Miles has a new cousin to have adventures with as they grow up :) Today is also my bestfriend's 26th birthday, Diane Medina aka Deeandroid. It was a great way to celebrate, cuttin it up for ASU at SFSU earlier this evening. Miles got to watch his mama in action. It was a family affair! Today is also my nephew's 1st birthday, Jesse Machado. We got to celebrate it on April 1st in Vegas with most of the Cadabes family. That was a dope weekend with delicious Hawaiian food. I think I gained about 5lbs from grubbin on lau lau, kalua, and mac salad.

Right now, the moon is huge. Tomorrow is a full moon. The sky actually cleared up a bit this evening so we got to see a little sunshine.

I just love these days when there is so much happiness around you, balancing it all out.

Dee and Winst-Oner are coming over and we're gonna peep Piece by Piece, the documentary on SF graffiti history. Miles is already sleeping so its time to unwind.

give thanks.